And today was a day just like any other.  I had an early Christmas with the left side of my family and saw my cousin Jay who I'm for some reason oddly fond of.  He's a cool guy.  He reminds me of someone.  Because of his past he reminds me of my best friend Tommy.  Tommy is fucking up his life because of drugs and he doesn't want help.  I don't know what to do for him because there's nothing I can do unless he wants help.  My other best friend died recently because of drugs and alcohol.  This was almost 3 months ago and it burns me like nothing I've ever felt still.  I'm sure I'll never get over it and unfortunately talking about it does not help, it only makes it worse.  What can you do when nothing makes it better?  Time won't make it better I know...  I'm hear I'll listen because I learned the hard way that I don't listen when my ears are needed most.  I only have myself to blame.  But that's too negative, I shouldn't blame myself because I didn't give him the drugs or the alcohol... Happy birthday you're dead.

Current Location: Brother's room
Current Mood: blank
Current Music: Empires-Gift of Asylum

The fact that a lot of fans are turning their backs on TAI and saying they want out and balahafhsadkhfaksdjhf or that besides the fact that most people are now doing this ...  They still love us.  They want it to blow over more than you do.  You want out and THEY STILL FUCKING LOVE YOU.  I know this will be blocked or whatever and Christina is doing an AMAZING job at it *high five*.  I just want to say it because I'm in tears and Jack was cheering me up well(he's so soothing for some reason) and now I can stop blubbering enough to post this.  I'm not saying this to make anyone feel terrible but I do and I DIDN'T EVEN DO ANYTHING WRONG.  I have stuck by there side through this whole mess and I always will*as will awesome TRUE fans*.   Thank you Christina, Jack, and true TAI fans.  

Bringing Santi back
molly

Current Location: basement
Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: the sound of my sorrow...seriously

I saw an icon and it reminded me to say,"April 3rd, day you gonna die!"